Behind his smile there are difficulties and pains you will never understand 😔
I don’t often post sad posts guys; because 95% of the time this kid cracks me up with his one liners and his brutal honesty of everyone 🤷🏽♀️ (my child obvs)... but today I saw anxiety of another level. Luckily, we are way passed the aggressive with little man, but instead his anxiety presents itself in the form of questions. He must’ve asked over 100 questions in the space of 2 hours. He was obsessing over the familiar stuff; asking staff whether they have Henry Hoovers and what colour they are and which model etc etc etc. All he wanted to do from the minute we checked in and left the room; was go back to the room and check the TVs. I cannot even begin to explain the anxiety. Honestly, I’m lost for words even here where I’m desperately tying to raise awareness. Because after 2 hours sleep on the sofa, I am wide awake and trying to think of how to help him relax on his pre-birthday weekend.
It’s so tricky to explain, how his social understanding totally fails him when he’s anxious. Barging passed people involuntarily, just to get to his point of interest, calling for the lift and standing right in front of the door, when there’s a queue of ppl waiting, screaming out in the dining area in front of everyone, simply because I called out to him; jumping the queue at a ride, because he wants to go first; or simply because he hasn’t even acknowledged the others waiting. It may seem trivial to non-autistic parents; but I’m hoping the autistic parents can help me out here.
Ironically, a post full of words which says nothing at all as expected. 😔