So Sam and I have had the most scary and difficult few weeks. Back in November, we found out we were expecting a lovely new addition to our family. A suprise, yet the best early Christmas present! Fast forward through Christmas and New Year, and everything was going well. We had an early scan on 18th Jan, dating 12 weeks and 5 days! We both held our breath as we waited to see the screen - perfectly healthy! Few days later we had our NHS scan, dated 13 weeks and 3 days! Relief!
Later the same week I experienced what every pregnant woman dreads and the colour red when going to the loo. We went to A&E as it was the weekend and nowhere else could offer any help, referred to the local EPU where, a few days later, we were told that we had lost our little baby at 14 weeks and 3 days. We spent the next week or so sorting our heads out, explaining what had happened to friends and family and just getting on with everything.
Another scan at EPU the very next week showed that everything had 'passed' and we could move on and get on with our lives. We weren't stuck in the limbo of not knowing and understanding what was happening.
However, last Sunday, 10th February, everything changed and our lives were really put into perspective. Around lunchtime I felt a little unwell so went to the bathroom where I experienced a haemorrhage and passed out on our bathroom floor. Sam found me and called 999, whilst ensuring our girls did not see their mummy like this. Paramedics attended to me for over two hours as I slipped in and out of conciousness, and then took me into UHNS Royal Stoke where I was taken into Resus. A huge team of doctors and nurses fought to stop my bleeding as it was majorly threatening my life. I can't remember mucb except the panic on the doctors faces as one shouted 'we need theatre now', and another was shouting my name and telling me to 'stay with him'. I was whisked into theatre and remember telling Sam that I loved him and the girls, and I needed him to always take care of them. I honestly thought I was going to die - and he thought I was too. **continued in comments** #miscarriage #awareness #nhs #secondtrimestermiscarriage #babyloss #stigma