When I started painting again about a year ago, my drive was fueled by anger and rebellion. My paintings were not angry, but they were much more abstract. They only started evolving into florals in late summer. I had realized my need to not let my job determine where my life was headed. There is a whole boatload of pain associated with my former job, which I will not get into here. But I was determined once I began painting again that I would do everything I could to leave both my job and the industry I was in. I was taking back what I felt I’d lost and let go of several years ago and I found moments where numbness and pain gave way to joy and freedom when I painted. I believe at the time I used paint as my therapy. My need was to feel complete freedom and not to try to control the outcome of my art. But as seasons changed and I started feeling connection again to my art and to life in general, I also started to feel more deeply the presence of supportive and loving people in my life whom I missed, specifically my mother and grandmother, and it began influencing my paintings. My studio overlooks my backyard, where I can view my garden. My mother and grandmother always loved their gardens, and amongst the flowers is where I feel their presence the most — there, and anywhere, any time I’m creating.
Four weeks ago, I resigned from my job. When I walked out of the office for the last time, I really wasn’t sure how to begin my new life. Now art was no longer my rebellion and something to reclaim, but rather it was free to me every day (or night), to pursue, study, dabble in and enjoy, and ultimately use to support myself financially. My week was spent juggling several small projects. It’s been fun, but I started feeling restless to create a larger painting on gallery wrapped canvas. I see myself and art evolving. I’m not completely sure where it’s headed, but I hope you’ll all stay with me on my journey.
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