#ivf

Not a huge update, but I think  it's important to celebrate even the small things, because I can't take anything for granted in this #ivf process. Also, aren't you here for the overshares anyways?
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Yesterday, my IVF doctor shared the results of the uterine biopsy Kaiser (our HMO) analyzed last week (this was the sample Kaiser kept while the other sample went to an external lab for the #ERA). And good news! It was negative for chronic endometritis. I had to google what this even meant... Chronic endometritis is chronic inflammation of the endometrium-- the lining of the uterus. It is a low-grade infection, but most people won't have any symptoms or doctors might misdiagnose the symptoms. Chronic endometritis has been found to be related to infertility, so we left no stone unturned. I didn't think I had it (not that anyone would), but if the test come back positive, we would delay an #ivftransfer cycle in order to treat the endometritis. So yay for the result!
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Next up: the ERA results, which I expect some time next week. I'll take my last progesterone shot on Friday morning, which means we're inching closer to a real transfer cycle very soon! I'll be back with more when I get the call.
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#ivfjourney #ivfwarrior #ivfsupport #IVFgotthis #infertilityawareness
Not a huge update, but I think  it's important to celebrate even the small things, because I can't take anything for granted in this #ivf process. Also, aren't you here for the overshares anyways?
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Yesterday, my IVF doctor shared the results of the uterine biopsy Kaiser (our HMO) analyzed last week (this was the sample Kaiser kept while the other sample went to an external lab for the #ERA). And good news! It was negative for chronic endometritis. I had to google what this even meant... Chronic endometritis is chronic inflammation of the endometrium-- the lining of the uterus. It is a low-grade infection, but most people won't have any symptoms or doctors might misdiagnose the symptoms. Chronic endometritis has been found to be related to infertility, so we left no stone unturned. I didn't think I had it (not that anyone would), but if the test come back positive, we would delay an #ivftransfer cycle in order to treat the endometritis. So yay for the result!
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Next up: the ERA results, which I expect some time next week. I'll take my last progesterone shot on Friday morning, which means we're inching closer to a real transfer cycle very soon! I'll be back with more when I get the call.
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#ivfjourney #ivfwarrior #ivfsupport #IVFgotthis #infertilityawareness
The introduction...... #ivf #baby #pregnancy #ivf #infertility #ivfjourney #fertility #ttc #infertilityawareness #ivfsuccess #ttccommunity #fertilityjourney #icsi #iui #pregnancy #pcos #ivfsupport #fertilitytreatment #ttcjourney #baby #ivfpregnancy #ivfcommunity #infertilityjourney #fertilityawareness #surrogacy #infertilitysucks #ivfbaby #ivfwarrior #family #health #ttcsupport #surrogate #bhfyp
𝗛𝗲𝗹𝗹𝗼 𝗺𝘆 𝗳𝗲𝗹𝗹𝗼𝘄 𝘀𝘁𝗿𝗼𝗻𝗴 𝘄𝗼𝗺𝗲𝗻! 𝗠𝘆 𝗻𝗮𝗺𝗲 𝗶𝘀 𝗠𝗮𝗿𝗶𝗮. 𝗜’𝗺 𝟮𝟮 𝘆𝗲𝗮𝗿𝘀 𝗼𝗹𝗱 𝗮𝗻𝗱 𝗵𝗮𝘃𝗲 𝗯𝗲𝗲𝗻 𝘁𝗿𝘆𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝗳𝗼𝗿 𝗻𝗲𝗮𝗿𝗹𝘆 𝟮 𝘆𝗲𝗮𝗿𝘀 𝘁𝗼 𝗰𝗼𝗻𝗰𝗲𝗶𝘃𝗲 𝘄𝗶𝘁𝗵 𝗺𝘆 𝗽𝗮𝗿𝘁𝗻𝗲𝗿 𝗼𝗳 𝟲 𝘆𝗲𝗮𝗿𝘀. 𝗜 𝗰𝗮𝗻’𝘁 𝘄𝗮𝗶𝘁 𝘁𝗼 𝗳𝗼𝗹𝗹𝗼𝘄 𝘆𝗼𝘂𝗿 𝗷𝗼𝘂𝗿𝗻𝗲𝘆𝘀 𝗮𝗻𝗱 𝘀𝘂𝗽𝗽𝗼𝗿𝘁 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝗮𝗹𝗹.
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#ivfjourney #ivf #ivfsuccess #ivfpregnancy #ivfsupport #pregnancy #infertility #infertilitysucks #infertilityawareness #infertilityjourney #lfl #gym #ttc #ttccommunity #ttcsisters #ttcjourney #slimmingworld #healthy #pt #mindfulness #yoga #quote #crystals #healing
𝗛𝗲𝗹𝗹𝗼 𝗺𝘆 𝗳𝗲𝗹𝗹𝗼𝘄 𝘀𝘁𝗿𝗼𝗻𝗴 𝘄𝗼𝗺𝗲𝗻! 𝗠𝘆 𝗻𝗮𝗺𝗲 𝗶𝘀 𝗠𝗮𝗿𝗶𝗮. 𝗜’𝗺 𝟮𝟮 𝘆𝗲𝗮𝗿𝘀 𝗼𝗹𝗱 𝗮𝗻𝗱 𝗵𝗮𝘃𝗲 𝗯𝗲𝗲𝗻 𝘁𝗿𝘆𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝗳𝗼𝗿 𝗻𝗲𝗮𝗿𝗹𝘆 𝟮 𝘆𝗲𝗮𝗿𝘀 𝘁𝗼 𝗰𝗼𝗻𝗰𝗲𝗶𝘃𝗲 𝘄𝗶𝘁𝗵 𝗺𝘆 𝗽𝗮𝗿𝘁𝗻𝗲𝗿 𝗼𝗳 𝟲 𝘆𝗲𝗮𝗿𝘀. 𝗜 𝗰𝗮𝗻’𝘁 𝘄𝗮𝗶𝘁 𝘁𝗼 𝗳𝗼𝗹𝗹𝗼𝘄 𝘆𝗼𝘂𝗿 𝗷𝗼𝘂𝗿𝗻𝗲𝘆𝘀 𝗮𝗻𝗱 𝘀𝘂𝗽𝗽𝗼𝗿𝘁 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝗮𝗹𝗹.
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#ivfjourney #ivf #ivfsuccess #ivfpregnancy #ivfsupport #pregnancy #infertility #infertilitysucks #infertilityawareness #infertilityjourney #lfl #gym #ttc #ttccommunity #ttcsisters #ttcjourney #slimmingworld #healthy #pt #mindfulness #yoga #quote #crystals #healing
Handy little reference to use as we all start our journey and even this far in sometimes it's overwhelming hearing some people speak about their experiences or research and you feel like you haven't a clue! I still need to refer to tables like this, if in doubt just ask 😉👍#ttccommunity #ivfsupport #ivfireland #infertilitysucks #icsi #ivfjourney #ivf #1in4
Handy little reference to use as we all start our journey and even this far in sometimes it's overwhelming hearing some people speak about their experiences or research and you feel like you haven't a clue! I still need to refer to tables like this, if in doubt just ask 😉👍#ttccommunity #ivfsupport #ivfireland #infertilitysucks #icsi #ivfjourney #ivf #1in4
#waveoflight, for pregnancy and infant loss. ❤️🕯️ Today we honor that grief by lighting a candle for our first pregnancy, our miscarriage. I am filled with love for all of us, we who have lost our much-wanted little ones. #1in4
#waveoflight, for pregnancy and infant loss. ❤️🕯️ Today we honor that grief by lighting a candle for our first pregnancy, our miscarriage. I am filled with love for all of us, we who have lost our much-wanted little ones. #1in4
Way back Wednesday 💕
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Sometime we look happy but we are hiding heavy loads, so remember to just be kind 💕
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I lost my very first embryo the day after this photo was taken 💔 we were on a family trip down south for my mums 60th birthday, non of my family knew we were doing IVF. I was almost certain that morning it was over because of spotting, but convinced myself it was ‘implantation bleed’ 💔 the next day I swear, the worst period of my life; because I usually don’t sob when I get my period and normally my whole world is crashing down 💔 it took another year worth of transfers to get Hudson on board.
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#dontforgetwhyyoustarted  #ivfjourney #ivf #ivfsupport #ivfwarrior #infertility #infertilitysucks #infertilityawareness #infertilityjourney #ectopicpregnancy #threeyearsago #myjourneys #behindmysmile #behindthesmile #reallife #bekind
Way back Wednesday 💕
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Sometime we look happy but we are hiding heavy loads, so remember to just be kind 💕
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I lost my very first embryo the day after this photo was taken 💔 we were on a family trip down south for my mums 60th birthday, non of my family knew we were doing IVF. I was almost certain that morning it was over because of spotting, but convinced myself it was ‘implantation bleed’ 💔 the next day I swear, the worst period of my life; because I usually don’t sob when I get my period and normally my whole world is crashing down 💔 it took another year worth of transfers to get Hudson on board.
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#dontforgetwhyyoustarted #ivfjourney #ivf #ivfsupport #ivfwarrior #infertility #infertilitysucks #infertilityawareness #infertilityjourney #ectopicpregnancy #threeyearsago #myjourneys #behindmysmile #behindthesmile #reallife #bekind
I swear our conversations have gotten so weird throughout this process😂 we receive the results of my husband’s analysis today and we can move forward with natural fertilization of the eggs. At least this will be saving us $5,000! #ivfjourney #ivf #ivfcommunity #ivfgotthis #ivfstrong #nightmare#eggretrieval #infertility #infertilityawareness #infertilityhope #infertilitywarriors #infertilitytreatment #infertilitysisters #infertilityhurts 
#infertilitycolumbus #614 #icsi
I swear our conversations have gotten so weird throughout this process😂 we receive the results of my husband’s analysis today and we can move forward with natural fertilization of the eggs. At least this will be saving us $5,000! #ivfjourney #ivf #ivfcommunity #ivfgotthis #ivfstrong #nightmare#eggretrieval #infertility #infertilityawareness #infertilityhope #infertilitywarriors #infertilitytreatment #infertilitysisters #infertilityhurts
#infertilitycolumbus #614 #icsi
In honor of Pregnancy and Infant Loss Remembrance Day, grieving parents light a candle to create a wave of light around the world in memory of babies lost to pregnancy and infant loss.

Awareness is so important...even if you're not directly affected by a loss of a child...there are still things you can do to support those who have. Join an advocacy event, raise money for a nonprofit organization and join women's groups where you can be a source of support to those women and partners who have gone through this loss. 🙏🙏🙏
In honor of Pregnancy and Infant Loss Remembrance Day, grieving parents light a candle to create a wave of light around the world in memory of babies lost to pregnancy and infant loss.

Awareness is so important...even if you're not directly affected by a loss of a child...there are still things you can do to support those who have. Join an advocacy event, raise money for a nonprofit organization and join women's groups where you can be a source of support to those women and partners who have gone through this loss. 🙏🙏🙏
Someone likes sucking on their pinky finger! ☺️Weekly (maybe 2x weekly) non-stress tests and ultrasounds until our sweet miracle joins us earth side. Thank you all for the continued prayers. 👶🏼💙🙏🏻#31weeks5days #makingbabycook #ivfpregnancy #ivf #ivfgotthis #infertilitywarrior #ourivfjourney #wortheveryshot #bunintheoven #miraclebaby #babyboy #icsi
Someone likes sucking on their pinky finger! ☺️Weekly (maybe 2x weekly) non-stress tests and ultrasounds until our sweet miracle joins us earth side. Thank you all for the continued prayers. 👶🏼💙🙏🏻#31weeks5days #makingbabycook #ivfpregnancy #ivf #ivfgotthis #infertilitywarrior #ourivfjourney #wortheveryshot #bunintheoven #miraclebaby #babyboy #icsi
Same time last year, we were patiently counting down the weeks to meet this guy. What a difference a year makes! •
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#invocell #invocellivf #ivf #ivfbaby #ivfsuccess #theluckyfew #nothingdownaboutit #downsyndrome #downsyndromeadvocate #homiewithanextrachromie #t21 #trisomy21 #twomoms #teamtwomoms #lesbianmoms #twomomsquad #samesexparents #loveislove #ssparents #itchymom #wortheveryitch #icp #icppregnancy #cholestasisofpregnancy #raredisease #icpawareness #rainbowbaby #therewillbemiracles #adventureawaits #pregnancyafterloss
🥦 Broccoli & Mozzarella, it’s what's for dinner 😂⁣
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#snyderboyz #baby #babies #babyboy #buffalobaby #twins #twinboys #trendykids #buffalony #twinstagram #twinsofinstagram #instatwins #twomoms  #mostbuffalo #gaymoms #lgbtqfamily #twomomsquad #cutebaby #momsoftwins #lesbianmoms #reciprocalivf #ivfbaby #ivf #buffalove #fraternaltwins #fraternaltwinboys #fraternaltwin
October honours mothers, and fathers who hold their babies in their hearts.
Miscarriage is more common than thought by many, and can impact a couple trying for a baby for long after the miscarriage has occurred. Women who experience miscarriage are more likely to experience subsequent depression and anxiety- in a paper published in 2011 in The British Journal of Psychiatry more than 13,000 women were followed for three years post birth. Of the 2,823 who had miscarriages, about 15% experienced clinically significant depression and anxiety during pregnancies for up to three years.
Pregnancy and infant loss awareness is understanding that both parents grieve after a miscarriage. Support involves listening, as much as, or more than talking...lending a shoulder to cry on or a helping hand. 
It is important to understand that BOTH partners will need support and care following a miscarriage or loss,  and that women may struggle to meet the needs of her other healthy children born after a loss.
Another common misconception is that the earlier the loss in the pregnancy, the less grief will be experienced. Regardless of whether a loss occurs at 20 weeks or after a failed IVF cycle, every person who experiences a loss after trying to become a parent deserves to have their grief vaildated, and the care and support that follows.

#babyhealth #baby #babyloss #miscarriage #miscarriageawareness #angelbaby #pregnancy #pregnancyloss #pregnancylossawarenessmonth #ivfjourney #ivf #iui #icsi #iuijourney
October honours mothers, and fathers who hold their babies in their hearts.
Miscarriage is more common than thought by many, and can impact a couple trying for a baby for long after the miscarriage has occurred. Women who experience miscarriage are more likely to experience subsequent depression and anxiety- in a paper published in 2011 in The British Journal of Psychiatry more than 13,000 women were followed for three years post birth. Of the 2,823 who had miscarriages, about 15% experienced clinically significant depression and anxiety during pregnancies for up to three years.
Pregnancy and infant loss awareness is understanding that both parents grieve after a miscarriage. Support involves listening, as much as, or more than talking...lending a shoulder to cry on or a helping hand.
It is important to understand that BOTH partners will need support and care following a miscarriage or loss, and that women may struggle to meet the needs of her other healthy children born after a loss.
Another common misconception is that the earlier the loss in the pregnancy, the less grief will be experienced. Regardless of whether a loss occurs at 20 weeks or after a failed IVF cycle, every person who experiences a loss after trying to become a parent deserves to have their grief vaildated, and the care and support that follows.

#babyhealth #baby #babyloss #miscarriage #miscarriageawareness #angelbaby #pregnancy #pregnancyloss #pregnancylossawarenessmonth #ivfjourney #ivf #iui #icsi #iuijourney
Dr. Ceana Nezhat and Northside Hospital host Professor Duan Hua U.S... veteran surgeon...Thanks Professor.#asrm2019 #obgyn #ivf
Dr. Ceana Nezhat and Northside Hospital host Professor Duan Hua U.S... veteran surgeon...Thanks Professor.#asrm2019 #obgyn #ivf
GOD Disrupts everything to get you to listen.
#stellaqrivers  #beatingbingeeating #bingeating #bulimia #healthcoach #selfcare  #selflove #diet #nondiet #pregnancy #motherhood #ivf #bodyacceptance #bodyimage #bodylove #bingeeatingcoach #bulimiacoach #eatingdisorderhelp  #weightloss #foodfreedom #fitmom #dietbrain #ditchdietbrain #normaleating #emotionaleating#intuitiveeating #mindfuleating #normalwithfood @stellaqrivers
~ Rachel Holland ~
~ April 16th 785 ~
I am officially 15 weeks and 5 days pregnant. Two more days and I will be 16 weeks pregnant. I am getting close to week 19, which will be when I should stop worrying so much. I am still so nervous, and now I am questioning if I made the right choice to do this again. I am hoping I am wrong, and I am worrying for nothing, but I can't help but think that this is going to be the same as last time.

#pregnant #25weeksand5dayspregnant #ivfjourney #ivf
~ Rachel Holland ~
~ April 16th 785 ~
I am officially 15 weeks and 5 days pregnant. Two more days and I will be 16 weeks pregnant. I am getting close to week 19, which will be when I should stop worrying so much. I am still so nervous, and now I am questioning if I made the right choice to do this again. I am hoping I am wrong, and I am worrying for nothing, but I can't help but think that this is going to be the same as last time.

#pregnant #25weeksand5dayspregnant #ivfjourney #ivf
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Sosok yang seperti ini lah yang di tunggu setiap seorang istri.
Allah tidak akan diam selagi ummatnya masih ingin berusaha, serta diiringi dengan do'a, karena sosok ini lah yang menjadi harta yang tak ternilai harganya.? Untuk para bunda-bunda yang menantikan sosok seperti ini tapi belum kunjung berhasil, bisa konsultasi terlebi dahulu Dan temukan solusinya bersama program BEE, silahkan bunda hubungi Terapis/admin kami :
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@promil.andalan01 🏥Untuk mendapatkan info kesehatan, medis, Program hamil(privasi terjaga) & hiburan bayi
️✔ contact person : 📲Whatsapp: 082334264836
~ Rachel Holland ~
~ March 22nd 785 ~
12 weeks and 1 day into this pregnancy and I still cannot shake the feeling that it might go wrong. I wish I wasn't thinking like this, but I cannot help it after having two miscarriages, and no healthy babies. I have been crying a lot, thinking that I am going to be trying to find the baby's heartbeat, and it not be there. I am so worry, and I want to be excited, but I can't anymore.

#pregnant #ivfjourney #ivf
~ Rachel Holland ~
~ March 22nd 785 ~
12 weeks and 1 day into this pregnancy and I still cannot shake the feeling that it might go wrong. I wish I wasn't thinking like this, but I cannot help it after having two miscarriages, and no healthy babies. I have been crying a lot, thinking that I am going to be trying to find the baby's heartbeat, and it not be there. I am so worry, and I want to be excited, but I can't anymore.

#pregnant #ivfjourney #ivf
This boy. And my girl sleeping in the other room. You’ll never know how hard we fought for you, how many tears were shed, how many needles. You’ll never know the sibling that came before you, whose birthday should have been next month. I’m holding you on the same couch I spent weeks crying on. And here you guys are. You’re prefect, in every single little way. I wouldn’t trade this path for anything because it led me to you. But I will also never stop wondering who that baby was too. Teague and Maeve, I love you more than you’ll ever know. You are my miracles. I struggled with being ok with this for a long time, if you need a hand to hold or someone to listen, I’m here. #iam1in4 #ivf #pregnancylossawareness
This boy. And my girl sleeping in the other room. You’ll never know how hard we fought for you, how many tears were shed, how many needles. You’ll never know the sibling that came before you, whose birthday should have been next month. I’m holding you on the same couch I spent weeks crying on. And here you guys are. You’re prefect, in every single little way. I wouldn’t trade this path for anything because it led me to you. But I will also never stop wondering who that baby was too. Teague and Maeve, I love you more than you’ll ever know. You are my miracles. I struggled with being ok with this for a long time, if you need a hand to hold or someone to listen, I’m here. #iam1in4 #ivf #pregnancylossawareness
On this Baby Loss Awareness day I'm thinking of my two chemical pregnancies, and our baby we call Vegas Baby who left us at six weeks. I'm also thinking of all the amazing people out there who have had to endure losses. Sending love to all. 💕
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#babylossawareness #babyloss #pregnancyloss #miscarriage #chemicalpregnancy #ttcjourney #ttc #ttcover30 #infertility #infertilityclub #infertilitysucks #fuckinfertility #unexplainedinfertility #ivf #ivfjourney
On this Baby Loss Awareness day I'm thinking of my two chemical pregnancies, and our baby we call Vegas Baby who left us at six weeks. I'm also thinking of all the amazing people out there who have had to endure losses. Sending love to all. 💕
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#babylossawareness #babyloss #pregnancyloss #miscarriage #chemicalpregnancy #ttcjourney #ttc #ttcover30 #infertility #infertilityclub #infertilitysucks #fuckinfertility #unexplainedinfertility #ivf #ivfjourney
Friday was our first appt with the new OB. The reason why I switched was because my original ob/gyn is on permanent medical leave and his partner delivers at a hospital I refuse to go back too.
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So after some research with our insurance and our RE highly recommending this doctor we finally got to meet her!
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Her personality was great and definitely someone I can see delivering our baby. She answered all our questions, we heard baby’s heartbeat...and then I told her about the two cervical procedures I had and how that’s my biggest worry right now and instead of going through the steps of what would happen if something goes wrong her response was “it could happen to anyone”...yeah I get that...but I’m more at risk I’ve been told this for years...again she said “it could happen to anyone” so I feel kind of brushed off for my ONE and ONLY (major) concern.
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When all was said and done we found out all of our ultrasounds would have to be done at the hospital 🙄...so when I told her the hospital I was looking to deliver at she said she is no longer affiliated with that hospital and only delivers at some other one which ugh i would never even choose as an option. She never updated her affiliations so that’s why my insurance pulled her up as a dr who delivers at the hospital I want. We feel kind of stuck right now not knowing what to do but we figured we would go to this ultrasound and check the hospital out and see how we feel after and if it’s going to work for us 🤷🏻‍♀️ I know I sound like a picky bitch right now but if you guys knew the situation you’d understand....just trying not to give myself PTSD while giving birth 👌🏻
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#sincerelythemillers #infertility #pcos #ttc #tryingtoconceive #ttccommunity #1in8 #infertilitysupport #infertilityjourney #ivfsupport #ivfwarrior #ivfsisters #infertilityblog #ivf #ivfjourney #iui #infertilityblogger #infertilitysucks #pcosawareness  #metabolicsyndrome #blog #blogger #blogpost #blogpost #hope #makingbabies #transfer #firstappointment
Friday was our first appt with the new OB. The reason why I switched was because my original ob/gyn is on permanent medical leave and his partner delivers at a hospital I refuse to go back too.
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So after some research with our insurance and our RE highly recommending this doctor we finally got to meet her!
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Her personality was great and definitely someone I can see delivering our baby. She answered all our questions, we heard baby’s heartbeat...and then I told her about the two cervical procedures I had and how that’s my biggest worry right now and instead of going through the steps of what would happen if something goes wrong her response was “it could happen to anyone”...yeah I get that...but I’m more at risk I’ve been told this for years...again she said “it could happen to anyone” so I feel kind of brushed off for my ONE and ONLY (major) concern.
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When all was said and done we found out all of our ultrasounds would have to be done at the hospital 🙄...so when I told her the hospital I was looking to deliver at she said she is no longer affiliated with that hospital and only delivers at some other one which ugh i would never even choose as an option. She never updated her affiliations so that’s why my insurance pulled her up as a dr who delivers at the hospital I want. We feel kind of stuck right now not knowing what to do but we figured we would go to this ultrasound and check the hospital out and see how we feel after and if it’s going to work for us 🤷🏻‍♀️ I know I sound like a picky bitch right now but if you guys knew the situation you’d understand....just trying not to give myself PTSD while giving birth 👌🏻
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#sincerelythemillers #infertility #pcos #ttc #tryingtoconceive #ttccommunity #1in8 #infertilitysupport #infertilityjourney #ivfsupport #ivfwarrior #ivfsisters #infertilityblog #ivf #ivfjourney #iui #infertilityblogger #infertilitysucks #pcosawareness #metabolicsyndrome #blog #blogger #blogpost #blogpost #hope #makingbabies #transfer #firstappointment