I started running 11 years ago sporadically when I moved to Switzerland (thanks to a lovely Golden Retriever named Oskar who needed tons of exercise! @elsa.clemensson @lovisa_bella @lindaclemensson ), but it has never come easy to me. In fact, running in certain conditions like extreme cold, rain or wind make me panic.
If you look at my body, I have thick thighs, boobs, booty and thick calves that make it hard to wear skinny jeans or knee length boots! (It’s a problem haha) My body is nothing like your typical runner’s, but it has managed to get faster and stronger after all it’s been through.
I ran the @lululemon #seawheeze2019
last weekend and I was so nervous I barely slept the night before. I could barely run the week before! I kept thinking how I wasn’t going to make it and when I got there I kept looking at all the skinny women running and felt very inadequate 🤦🏻♀️ But I finished, and I finished with my 2nd fastest half-marathon, even though I walked a good chunk, had to stop to refill my bottle a couple of times and felt like giving up a few times along the way. My non-skinny body managed to run a half marathon in 2:20:07 with a pace of 10:41 min/mi. I was exhausted and hot, but I managed. Had I felt better, who knows what I could’ve accomplished!
So here’s the thing, I’ve given myself so much shit for not being skinnier or faster, when I should be embracing what I’ve managed to accomplish even in the midst of me having physical injuries and mental disorders. I have a runner’s body.
Let me repeat this again, I have a runner’s body 🏃🏻♀️ Even when I thought I wasn’t actively running or losing weight or doing longer distances, nothing can take away from me the fact that I am a runner. I love the thrill of reaching goals and pushing my body even if I wonder before any run “why the fuck am I doing this?!” I know the answer: it shows me that I am strong even when I’m in pain, and it’s not just when I’m running, it’s all the times I’ve had to run in the midst of pain, metaphorically.
Life isn’t easy, running isn’t easy, but my imperfect body and my imperfect mind are here for all if it 🙌🏼