February 18, 2019
Today would have been my Father's 78th birthday. If I can be truthful..... The quality of his life would not have been rewarding for him. God saw it fit to give him 66 years of life and 40 of those were a gift to me. Even if it took him half that time to make me the man I am, would not have been his responsibility for the choices and mistakes which I have made. Those would have been mine. But the beautiful reality of the life lessons he gave me was not when he shared them with me, it was when they became a reality in me. .
What it has taught me as a Father now physically to my son's and spiritually to those God has placed in my path through the ministry I have been called into is a very profound truth. LOVE is patient and sadly many who give that love never see their labor birthed within their children. I often wondered if he died with the regret of not seeing me the way I am now and then I am reminded of the look of peace he had on his face while #NYFD
#EMT worked to revive him on his living room floor. It is an experience I will never soon forget which is we are spiritual beings and God gives us assurances that He is pleased with us and it is time to see the rewards I have for you.
I should have paid closer attention, but at least I'm not living with regret of not making peace with him before he passed.