Let’s talk! 👩🏽🍳 We grow from being inspired...or uncomfortable. That’s really it. I’m not a big fan of being uncomfortable...so much so, that I actually force myself to not feel or think when dealing with tough situations - just to make it through. You all see the glory, but have no clue the amount of pain and suffering that has gone into my story. In fact, that was the biggest bugbear I had with @gordongram constantly ribbing on me being “the posh one”, as though there was nothing deeper to me. In the course of foreign correspondency, I have been beaten up at gun point in third world countries, threatened to be raped by masked men, locked up in dungeons for ransoms, flogged...treated in the most depraved manner with my voice as strong as ever, fighting for justice with nary a tear escaping my eyes.
So, understand that when you see me crying - it’s personal.
It’s not about being eliminated from a competition I went on for a laugh, it’s about overcoming the voice in my head - the only one that matters - when she becomes riddled with anxiety and feels the onset of depression rearing it’s ugly head, telling her she’s worthless because she can’t do something that seems so easy.
I’ve been tough and fiercely independent all my life, but I’m a beginner when it comes to accepting my own feelings and vulnerability.
It shouldn’t take a strong woman breaking down for another to acknowledge her humanity...on the flip side, people will never know you need help unless you ask.
Ergo, here’s your Monday morning reminder that we’re all just trying to make it through life the best way we know how while uncovering parts of ourselves we never even knew existed, along the way.
Be Kind To One Another, OK? ❤️