A topic which none of us talk about ever, I MEAN EVER, on social media is miscarriage. Google says 25% of pregnancies end up in a loss but somehow we feel it’s our fault if we lose a pregnancy. When we(hubby n me) started trying to conceive, just about three months later, I missed by periods by a day. I knew it cause my dates were pretty much bang on. So we immediately took a test(read mistake 1.) We should have waited a week but I think we were too excited and inexperienced. Going to a doctor who scared the shit out of us saying ‘Bhagwan pe bharosa rakho’ cause we were married for 7 years without a child was mistake 2. And telling our family before even A week passed was our mistake 3. I miscarried in the first week itself. Had my periods not been that regular, I wouldn’t have even known. I was heartbroken cause I thought it was my fault.I had had a glass of wine earlier that week and I thought maybe that was what caused it. I kept replaying the week in my mind over and over again. It was just a week of knowing but I was heartbroken. It took me a lot of time to get over it. Gladly I found a very good doctor who immediately erased all our worries. Shortly after we went on a trip and I finally let it go.
It took just a month again for me to conceive again but it had made me overtly cautious and I stopped working out and even going out of the house for the first 12 weeks. I didnt share the news with family and friends till much later. It was only by the fifth or sixth month that I started enjoying my pregnancy. There are so many things I would change if I could go back. I would want to be out there and pregnant. I would want to believe that my body didn’t cause the miscarriage. I would want to let all negative thoughts to be put to rest and believe in myself. I would want to continue doing yoga till my body permitted. Maybe the next time 😃 😃
So ladies, believe in yourself. Believe your body. Surround yourself with people who love you. Everything will happen when it is destined to. Don’t give up. There is always a silver lining. My #rainbowbaby